shifting gears without a clutch

14 Apr 06 Friday
12:41 AM - shifting gears without a clutch
Current mood: violently happy
Category: violently happy Fashion, Style, Shopping

so....
normally i am sitting in front of my computer at home listening to

something somber. at the moment i am in palm springs, at justin's

house. he is playing some video game and i'm just taking a moment to

reflect on a rather bizarre turn of events.
there have been two people that, if i had the means, i would have had

removed from the earth. one of them is a regular email correspondant

now and the other has offered a olive branch of such earnest weight

that i have no choice but to consider it.
these are the people that taught me to hate.

there are times when life seems to shift gears and not tell you.
justin and i have been together almost 4 motnths and i couldnt be

happier with our relationship. truth be told, i havent figured out how

i havent fucked it up yet, lol. everytime that we come to a problem,

one of us has the exact right thing to say at exactly the right time,

and it all works out.
justin knows all of my faults and still loves me. he even knows jacob

(in passing). he has been my life-buoy in a turbulent time and i dont

know if i have ever yet been able to tell him how much he means to me.

i know it all sounds cheesy and very dan fogelberg, but i wanted a good

blog amongst all of my angst-ridden diatribes.

theres actually a lot to be angst-ridden about, but i have to process

it before i can write it out. besides; its amazing what a little sun

and a few days by the pool does for your demeanor

off to bed.......:)

cheers