digression

05 Feb 06 Sunday
9:57 PM - digression

the last few days have been strange.

i dont have the money for rent and i'm past due.
i spent today location scouting for a film with my friend, nick. its his film and it is a challenge as a DP.
we are going to be up in the angeles forest, 10 of us in an RV camping out and then shooting while the sun is up.
EVERYTHING must be carefully planned out before we start shooting.

i'm honoured that nick felt i was up to the challenge and that he has every confidence in me. he knows about what happened on ryan's shoot and yet he still trusts me as his DP. i also think that we are becoming fast friends.
i have a list in my head of the dream crew of LMU studetns and he has always been on that list.
there is kind of a cliche of students at LMU, its simply a cliche of people who love film more than anything. its exciting that all of us will be working together in such close quarters.
today nick and i, out of breath(from being over 6, 000ft high) and exhausted from climbing trails and hills all day still walked a good half a mile out onto a trail that led to a precipice that we need to shoot a scene. it took all of our energy, but we found the locations that are going to make this film amazing and make a very dangerous situation harmless.
it was then that i knew that i still have work to do in this world.

mind you, i think i have pneumonia again.
there is a short list of people who understand the gravity of that statement.

i'm going to get tested tomorrow.

been fighting all day, but i'm sober.
thinkning about leaving this apt and living in a recovery house that a good friend recommended. dunno.
tired.